18 days…

Whoa.

18 days left in Antarctica.

Am I ready to leave?  Am I ready to rejoin the hustle and bustle of every day life?

Yes and No.  To both questions.

I’ve seen/done some amazing things over the past 384 days and have gotten to know some incredible people. 

And since I’m a serious blogging slacker, I need to post several posts tonight, recapping what all has gone on since my last post.

So sit back, relax, grab a cup of tea or coffee and get ready to get caught up on what has been going on in my little world.

An Open Letter to my Nieces and Nephew

Dearest Delaney, Laurel, Reba and Edison,

The four of you mean the world to me.  I am the luckiest Aunt in the world because I have the four of you in my life.  You’re some of the coolest people I know.

You’re getting to the age in your life where you are probably thinking that no adult has EVER experienced what you have.  We have NO IDEA what you are going through.  There is NO POSSIBLE way we can understand.

Despite my gray hair (De & Re, you’d freak out because I haven’t dyed my hair in almost a year and I have more gray than your mom), I remember what it was like to be your age.  I remember feeling the same way.  You’ll laugh when you’re older and realize the same thing.

So here are a few words of wisdom from Auntie Oompa

  • Being the most popular doesn’t mean anything in the long run.  True friends don’t care if you’re popular as long as you’re being yourself.
  • Respect adults because one day you’ll be one.
  • Do your homework.  I never thought I would say those words (ask your Grandma and Grandpa).  Homework is important.  Studying IS important.  Getting good grades is more important than any video game, sport, social event, etc…
  • Brush your teeth at least twice a day.
  • Eat your vegetables (because you may end up in a place where you can’t get fresh vegetables often and you realize how much you miss them…)
  • Don’t foolishly spend your money (or your parents money).  Start saving your birthday money and money you get from babysitting or doing chores.
  • You don’t NEED everything you WANT.
  • Don’t rush to grow up.  Enjoy where you are in life now.
  • Accept responsibility for your actions.
  • If you get a gut feeling that something you’re thinking of doing is wrong, DON’T DO IT.
  • Your parents/grandparents/aunts and uncles have your best interests at heart.  Be grateful for them.  Always.  Thank them and tell them you love them every day.  Hug them every chance you get.
  • Be grateful for your friends.  The real friends.  The ones that love you despite your flaws.  The ones that are there for you during hard times and are there to share the good times as well.  Those are the friendships that you will cherish for forever.
  • Take risks but don’t do things that you know are really stupid.  For instance, piercing your own bellybutton is a REALLY STUPID idea.  Applying to work in Antarctica is a REALLY BRILLIANT idea.

Start thinking of where you want to go in life.  The decisions you make today are already shaping your future.  Don’t settle for being mediocre or average.  Being less than your own personal best is a waste of talent.

Okay, okay, stop rolling your eyes.  I’ll quit sounding like an old lady (for now).

Love you babies!

Auntie Oompa

Midwinter Polar Plunge

Today is Monday, June 18th, 2012.  I’m currently sitting in the toasty warm dispatch office in the fire house.  I’ve spent the last hour trying to think of a fun catchy blog title to use while writing about the polar plunge I participated in over the weekend.

Wait.  What the what?  Tori are you insane?!?!

No, you heard me.

Polar Plunge.  In Antarctica.

A few weeks ago, a sign up sheet was placed in front of the recreation office for people to sign up if they wanted to participate in the 2012 Midwinter Polar Plunge.  It took me .02 seconds to decide that this idea was deliciously delightful and rush down to the office to get my name on the list.  I was the 15th person to sign up for a Saturday morning slot.

We crazy people travel in flocks/droves/herds.

I’d kind of put the whole idea on the back shelf of my mind since I was concentrating on ideas for the Midwinter dinner photo booth *more on the dinner in a different post*, that is, until Wednesday, June 13th.  Our recreation activity coordinator, Cindy, sent out an email to the participants.  In the e-mail, we received information about the time of the shuttle (8:45am) and required protective clothing (shoes).  Yep, the only REQUIRED clothing was shoes.  I thought of doing the truly adventurous thing and participating in the nude but:

1)  After hearing that the colossal Antarctic squid is attracted to lights, I assessed my pale complexion and determined I would look like a megawatt streetlight under the light of just one star.  I have no desire for a cephalopod to confuse me for a welcome sign.

2)  No group of people should be subjected to seeing me in that state.

There were also a couple of documents attached to the email which contained the SOPs (Standard Operating Procedures) for Scott Base’s Polar Plunge.  What can I say, I’ve got a tendency of living next to super nice people.  Yes, the friendly folk at Scott Base host the event.  A few excerpts from the SOPs, which I wasn’t going to post or talk about before doing the jump because I didn’t want to freak out my family, include:

Significant Risks

  • Cold Shock (duh)
  • Cold Incapacitation (duh)
  • Cardiac Fibrillation / Tachycardia (hm, that doesn’t sound good)
  • Hypothermia (not really interested in that either)
  • Frostnip / Frostbite (there are parts I do NOT want to lose!)
  • Injury from Slip / Fall (yeah… Grace is NOT my middle name…)
  • Environmental Damage (AKA you can get cut by the ice, then salt could get in the cut.  Ew.)

Severe Risks

  • Drowning due to inhalation of water because of cold shock  (gotcha, don’t attempt to extract oxygen from water)
  • Drowning due to inability of the participant to get out of the water unassisted because of cold incapacitation (can I wear my “Big Red” when I jump?!)

Yes, I included the comments in the parentheses.  Don’t think badly of the Kiwis.

I assessed the above information (quickly) and decided that jumping into the icy cold water was still calling my name.

So, I worked from 7am Friday to 7am Saturday.  No nap.  No sleep.  No checking my eyelids for holes or cracks.  It was actually a long night of intense weather watching and wondering if we would be able to jump that day or if the event may be postponed.  The weather forecast called for a low of -62 with the windchill with wind gusts up to 50 mph.

I had gone out with the group that did the plunge on Friday to take pictures of them.  There was NO wind and no one complained of being overly cold.  I was beginning to regret my decision of not stripping down, getting harnessed up and jumping into the water Friday.  I went with them so I could take pictures since my B shift fire guys were supposed to be jumping, as well as most of the lovely Galley folk.  I was glad I was able to be there to cheer them on.

Shortly before 7am on Saturday, Marsha relieved me at work.  We spoke briefly and very matter-of-factly about the looming plunge.  I then left to take a nap.

After a 20 minute cat nap, I called the station to confirm that the jump was still on, and indeed it was.  I changed into my bathing suit (yes, I brought bathing suits with me because I planned/plan on traveling when I leave), threw on a pair of sweat pants, a fleece shirt and my boots.  I packed my post-plunge pack with two towels (I didn’t want my hair to freeze), clean undergarments, long underwear, another pair of fleece pants, quick wick shirt and my newly acquired skua plunge shoes.

No, I wasn’t going to wear a pair that I brought down with me when there were perfectly acceptable ones for FREE in skua.

I trudged down to Derelict Junction, DJ, to meet up with the others and wait for the shuttle.  I was joined by Marsha, Wes and the others that were in our group.  We all loaded up in the van like an excited group of high schoolers on their way to a playoff football game.

We arrived at Scott Base and all went into the bar/galley area to hear the pre-plunge instructions and wait.  and wait.  and wait.

Marsha and Wes decided to go first,  I walked down to the water with them to show them the way as well as take pictures/cheer them on.  They went into the wannigan (warming shack) to change shoes and finish getting mentally ready for the dip.  After I watched both of them successfully leap into the water I went back to the galley to wait for them.  The plan was for them to photograph my jump after theirs, but I wanted to make sure they had plenty of time to warm up and dry off some before jumping.

Upon returning to the galley, I found that more people had arrived and had basically formed a sequential order of who was jumping next.

No worries.

I was one of the last people to head down to jump.  If I hadn’t been worried about falling and hurting myself BEFORE jumping, I probably would have skipped down there.  The winds had died down to somewhere around 25 mph, taking the perceived windchill temperature down to approximately -45F.  I knew the water was somewhere around 26 degrees Fahrenheit.  I stepped into the wannigan, removed all of my outer layers of clothing and changed into my plunging shoes.  There were five other people in the wannigan with me as I was getting ready.  Two of the kiwi base personnel who were helping the jumpers with their harnesses (we were required to wear safety harnesses), one person who just finished jumping and two that were getting ready to rotate out.  I was helped into my harness and wrapped in a nice warm blanket.  I watched out the window as my friends jumped into the icy abyss.

I started feeling adrenaline rush through my veins.  I started bouncing up and down on the balls of my feet in anticipation of the jump.

Finally, it was my turn.

I opened the door and stepped out towards our FD Captain and the guys who were in charge of hooking up the safety ropes.  I handed the captain my blanket and was quickly clipped to the “leap line”.  This was the only moment were I felt any sort of trepidation.  Earlier, two of my fire guys jumped and found that they had gotten some weird abrasions on their arms.  Neither one of them knew what caused it.  We figure they scraped against some chunks of ice on the way down but neither of them felt anything.  I wasn’t concerned about the possible pain of the abrasion.

I was concerned because that night was the big, fancy Mid-Winter dinner and I was going to be dressing up for it.  I was going to be out in something other than jeans or fleece pants and I didn’t want to be battered and bruised in my dress.  I’m not normally prissy, but dammit, I’m still a girl and I like getting dressed up!

So, along with the worry that my legs or arms might end up with abrasions, there was also a slight concern about running into a disgruntled seal.  Or a colossal giant squid.  Or something else that I’d never heard of.

I was going to be jumping into a slushy.  Between each jumper, the top of the water would freeze a bit, so chunks of ice had to be fished out.  Naturally, there was some left.  The more jumpers, the more “slush”.  The water, in its slushy state, made it hard to see down from the surface except for the small area they cleared out right before the leap.  It was very similar to going swimming in the creek behind my parents house.  I couldn’t see what was down there, but at least I knew that there were NOT going to be any alligators.  That was the thought I reassured myself with as I walked to the ice edge.

I walked to the ladder and stepped down onto the ice step that was the leaping point.  It was barely snowing and I glanced up to the heavens, giving a quick prayer that I wouldn’t die doing this, and then I gave the people on the other side of the water a double thumbs up.

I took a deep breath.  I held my nostrils closed.

I pushed off, leaping towards the spot they had directed me to, exhaling partially since I heard this would help with the reflex to gasp for air once I hit the cold water.

I heard the splash.  I felt myself enveloped as I dropped down a few feet below the surface.

It was cold, but not unbearably so.  It felt thick, almost silky.  Feeling the cold, salty water made my skin tingle.  I can only describe it as feeling pins and needs all over your body.  Not painful, but every inch of me felt alive.  My sense of touch felt heightened.

With one sense heightened, the next thought I had was to open my eyes, despite the salt water I was in.

I saw darkness below me and the pale teal color that is the underside of ice around me.  I started to feel myself rising to the surface, and I felt the urge to, well, breathe.   As I kicked my way to the surface (I was only down a couple of feet from the surface), the color of the ice became lighter and lighter.  I could feel ice brushing against my fingertips as I cleared the area I was going to surface.  I shot out of the water to mid chest, taking a deep breath of icy Antarctic air.  Despite holding my nose, I still got water up into my nasal passages.  I was snorting, trying to clear my nose while swimming back to the ladder.  As I was pulling myself up, the anchor guys were asking me if I was ok.

That’s when I realized I couldn’t talk.  I had the words in my head (YEAH! I’m FANTASTIC!  I wanna do it again!) but I couldn’t say them.   I was trying to catch my breath, clear my nose and talk all at the same time.  I grinned, nodded my head and snorted at them.  The fire captain looked at me with great concern and finally I cleared my nose and was able to say “It was great but I feel like liquid potato chips were shot up my nose!”

My eloquence amazes me.

I wrapped up in the blanket that I was handed and walked into the wannigan to get dried off and changed.

I forgot how quickly salt water dries in the desert.  It doesn’t matter if the water is ridiculously cold, it still dries quickly.  I almost didn’t need my towel.  I licked the salt off my lips and laughed as I saw my “baby curls” starting to form along the nape of my neck.  Ah, it was like being back on St. Simons.  There were 4 other people in the wannigan in various states of undress, all crowded around the heating stove.  Luckily, I didn’t feel cold.  At all.  My fingers were fine, my toes were fine.  I felt warm.  I grabbed my towel and started trying to figure out the schematics of changing in the shack.  Other than one of the kiwis who was helping people get ready, I was the only female in the room.

I found that the years of playing softball and changing on the bus or in the car on the way to games paid off.  I can change in a room full of people without exposing a thing.  Yes, I am proud of that fact.

After putting on dry socks and shoes, I headed back to the galley area.  I felt exhilarated.  I was warm.  I was giddy.  I was so glad that I did this and lived to eventually tell the tale.

After the rest of our group finished their jumps, we all loaded up into the shuttle and headed back to McMurdo.  Almost all of us that jumped that morning sat together.  We were a group of smiling fools that looked like they were rolled in pretzel salt.  It didn’t matter though.

It’s Antarctica.  It’s a harsh continent.  Being a fool, albeit a cautious one, is accepted as well as encouraged.

Remember, we’re all here ’cause we’re not all there.

Until next time.

Oh, I know the pictures are out of order, I’m working on fixing that though!

Things I miss.

While things are great down here on the Ice, I do miss some things.  Things that I used to take for granted.  I don’t miss them to the point where I am homesick, but I miss things like:

  • My family
  • My friends
  • The sweet, earthy smell of freshly mown grass
  • The metallic smell of rain
  • The smell of the marsh, river and creeks around Blythe Island
  • Driving down 303 with the windows down, singing along with the radio
  • The farmers market downtown and the produce section in grocery stores
  • Having my own bathroom
  • Thick, plush carpet
  • People under 21 (namely my nieces, nephew and the young Mister Baker)
  • Good toilet paper

I don’t miss things like:

  • Mosquitos and sandgnats
  • Hot weather
  • Humidity
  • Traffic
  • Frogs
  • Children screaming in restaurants
  • The feeling of “there’s nothing to do in this town!”
  • Washing dishes
  • Buying necessary stuff like lightbulbs, toilet paper, laundry detergent, etc…  I have had to buy laundry detergent here, but… it’s just different.  I didn’t have to “go” somewhere to get it.

Things I would have missed if I had come home before the start of the winter season:

  • My winter Ice family
  • Auroras
  • Total darkness all the time
  • The weirdness that occurs here on the Ice

So far I have enjoyed the winter season here.  The weather has been nice, not too cold…  I know most of the people in the station, which is nice.  It’s a pretty close knit community.  There are some people that choose not to socialize too much but we accept it as a choice that they have made and there isn’t any pressure put on them to go out and do things.  There are often times that I prefer to stay in and hang out with one or two of my closest friends, and everyone is okay with that.  Had I done that during the summer, I would have been constantly asked (mainly by my co-workers), “Why didn’t you go out last night?”  or “Is everything ok?”.  During the summer you were expected to go out.  If you didn’t, you were depressed and something was wrong…

Summer at McMurdo… well, had I gone off to college, I’m sure that’s what it would have resembled.

Winter at McMurdo is a totally different feeling.  It’s not a popularity contest.

So to answer the unasked question – Yes, so far I prefer winter.

Days off – part 1

So a while back, I posted what my typical work day is like and I wrote that I would also write what I do on my days off.  Well, being that I’m an extraordinary procrastinator, I’m finally getting around to doing just that.

It depends on the day of the week and what is going on in the world that dictates what I do on my days off.

For instance, if my first day off falls on a Sunday, I stay up after work.  I am in charge of writing the events on the Rec Board on Sunday and Monday morning.  The Rec Board is a big whiteboard located just outside of the Galley.  Every week, a list of recreational events comes out and each day the activities of the day are written up.  During winter, we had some amazing art work on the board.  One of the electricians, Jason, drew penguins that most people on station loved.  They were penguins with attitude.  I, on the other hand, have close to no two dimensional art skills, but I can draw a wicked stick figure.  So I do.

After I decorate the white board, I take a shower, check out things on Facebook, and then go to church.  We have a non-denominational service every Sunday morning between 10-11.  Even though the service is non-denominational, it is basically a catholic service  I’m actually surprised at the number of catholics here.  After the service, there is a separate communion service for the catholics that attend the service with the exception of Easter Sunday.  During that service, we all had communion together using a loaf of bread from the galley and a jug of grape juice after going to Hut Point to watch the sun rise (yes, my blogs are horribly out of order, but I’ve been in writing mode).

After church, I go to brunch.  Sunday brunch is my favorite meal of the week hands down.  And when I’m off, I get to sit and socialize with different people for a few hours over good food.  After brunch, I generally go and nap for a couple of hours, then I get up and head to either the gerbil gym or the big gym since I’ve started playing McMurdoian version of tennis.  It’s actually more like racquetball.  And I am horrible at it.  But it’s a good way to get in around an hour of cardio.  After working out, I go to the sauna for a half hour and then shower and by that time, it’s time for dinner.  After dinner, I either head to the coffeehouse for a bit, depending on the movie that is playing, or I head to my room to watch one of the movies that is playing and crash out.

If my second off day falls on a Sunday, I generally do the same thing, but I wake up at 7am to start the process.

Some of my whiteboard art and a few pictures from the Easter Service.

I like the night life, baby

If you recall (and if you don’t, you can read one of my early blogs) I spent some time during Winfly looking for Auroras.  When most people that I know think of auroras, they think of two things.  1, they think of Sleeping Beauty (you know, Princess Aurora), or the aurora borealis, the Northern Lights.  Well, being located where I am, we have the the Southern lights, the Aurora Australis.  Now that we are in winter, I find myself checking the sky frequently for auroras.

I HAVE FINALLY SEEN THEM!!!

The first time I saw an aurora, I didn’t have my camera with me.  I was walking home from the bar and was stopped by an inebriated individual who was staring up at the sky.  I stopped to talk to him and check to make sure that he was ok when he pointed at the sky and said “Hey, I think that’s an aurora”.  It was a very faint streak through the sky and honestly I couldn’t tell if it was a smudge on my glasses or if something was actually there, until it disappeared.  After that though, I have been constantly on the watch for the lights.

A few days ago, I walked out the back door of my building to head to work and glanced at the sky.  I was rewarded with several minutes of auroral (if that’s actually a word), action.  And luckily, I had my camera!  According to everything I’ve read, the aurora action this year is supposed to be rather intense, so I’m looking forward to more opportunities to witness these amazing phenomenons.  I’m sorry that the pictures are kind of blurry, I didn’t have my tripod on me and in order to take a decent picture of an aurora, you have to shoot using a very slow shutter speed.  But, enjoy!

Goodbye Sun!

April 24th, 2012 marked the last sunset of the season.  I was worried that the weather that day was going to mimic the weather from the day before, when we were borderline condition 1 weather.  Condition 1 weather is classified as “Windspeed over 100 knots (60 miles per hour)Visibility less than 100 feet (30 meters)Wind chill below −100 °F (−73 °C)Description: Dangerous conditions; outside travel is not permitted.”  Fortunately the day was gorgeous.  Sunrise time on April 24th, 2012 was 12:31 and sunset was 13:10.  Rick and I walked down to Hut Point to watch the sun set one last time for the winter.

From our vantage point, we didn’t actually see the sun.  What we did see, however, was a brilliant orange glow across the horizon, the Royal Society Mountain Range was softly highlighted in pink, and the colors all reflected off of the ice and patches of open water out across the bay area.

We sat on the ledge and talked about how lucky we were to be here.  We talked about our favorite points of the summer season and things we were looking forward to during the winter.  We took the time to enjoy the moment, ask God for a blessed and safe winter, and after about 30 minutes, wandered back to the metropolis of McMurdo.

April has arrived

I had an odd thought cross my mind while walking to work yesterday evening.  It was approximately 1750 and I realized it was already getting dark.  Granted we’ve been having sunsets for about a month now, it really occurred to me that the 24 hour darkness is approaching quickly.  With the darkness the winter will be in full swing.  I’m thrilled about the weather that I will experience and am looking forward to seeing how people cope in this type of environment.

As I posted before, there are only 153 of us on station.  There are several defined groups of people who hang out together and it is most noticeable at meal times.  The fire department folks.  Yeah, we pretty much stick together.  We socialize with everyone but when it comes to choosing who we eat with, it is generally people that we work with.  On occassion we’ll have one of the DA’s sit with us, or someone from the medical department, but normally, it’s just us.  Sometimes it drives me a bit batty and I chose to take my meal to my room so I can eat in peace.  Nothing against anyone that I work with, sometimes I just need a bit of solitude.

With the winter season being upon us, the recreational rules have changed.  There are only a few hikes that people are allowed to go on solo now.  My favorite one, the Ob Hill Loop, requires a partner.  I don’t mind hiking with someone but my work schedule isn’t always accomodating for other folks’ schedules.  Ob Hill can still be done solo.  No I haven’t gone on another attempt lately but with the weather changing as it has been and the darkness coming in quickly, I need to do this ASAP.  Last time I went to hike up the hill was before I became a gym rat.  If I don’t spend an hour in the gym daily, I feel wonky.  If I’m not in the gerbil gym then I am down in the big gym playing a ghettofied version of tennis/racketball.

This time of year, my job tasks slow to a crawl, especially at night.  Currently it’s 0438 am and the phone hasn’t rung since around 2030 (8:30pm for all you non military time folks).  No one has spoken on the radio… No fire alarms have gone off…  So far, I’ve only had 5 calls to dispatch during winter.  5 measly calls.  The last 12 hours of my shift are generally filled with searching the internet for random stuff.  Really there is no other way to describe what all I look up. 

Here’s a typical day for me (a work day):

0030 – Wake up, try to get back to sleep…

0130 – Fall back asleep (sometimes)

0400 – Wake back up, throw covers over head and try to go back to sleep

0415 – Give up on sleeping, get dressed, call work to see if Wes needs a break, wander to station and give him a break

0430 – Gym time

0530 – Leave gym, go to 155, shower, get dressed, throw hair in ponytail and head to breakfast at 0600

0600-0630 – breakfast, then head up to get all my work stuff together

0645 – Get to work, Wes tells me that nothing has been going on (yep, it’s pretty much like this every day)

In the morning there is morning stuff…  Watching the guys do the truck checks, logging them out when they go to the gym, having casual conversations with them throughout the morning.  Most of the time though I’m having to close doors behind them because I think some of them were raised in a barn.  I’ll take several off continent calls for random people.  I’ll provide phone numbers to people on station.  Some times I get a work order and have to call out a utility tech, or a boiler tech, or the fire tech… 

1145 – go grab lunch (if I didn’t sleep well the night before, I bring it back and nap during my lunch hour.  If I don’t need the extra sleep, I eat in the galley)

In the afternoon there is a repeat of morning stuff, only, it’s after noon.

1745 – dinner (same rules apply as the lunch rule of napping/eating)

I’ll take a few more phone calls, normally they stop at around 2100…  Then if I’m lucky, I’ll get a work order some time during the night.  Sometimes I have a firefighter hanging out in dispatch with me for a bit.  Tonight there was an epic battle involving an air cannon, mustard, cream cheese and water. 

What do I do during the night time hours when there is nothing going on?  I spend hours on Facebook looking at pictures of family and friends back at home.  I read…  I write (yeah I know, not often enough on here)…  I watch Maury episodes on youtube.  I blast music and sing loudly and poorly.  I look up random topics and go to different websites (for example, I’ve been reading different articles on www.focusonthefamily.com tonight.  Last time I worked, I watched a few videos of eye surgeries which lead me to read about different surgical procedures on wikipedia.  Sometimes there will be a decent movie on TV and I’ll just kick back and watch movies. 

0200 – Have a bowl of oatmeal

0320 – FRED gets a trouble alarm from 196 (This is normal)

0630 – play the wake up song!

0650ish – go home and change to go to the gym

0710ish – gym

0800 – shower, then sleep til around 1630

Next time, I’ll tell y’all what I do on my off days (it’ll be a two parter since I get two days off) 

xoxo- Tori

153 souls on station for the season

And out of those 153, there are 39 women at McMurdo for the winter.

The jobs that the women of McMurdo work vary.  We have fuels, recreation, human resources, finance, galley staff, FEMC schedulers (FEMC basically is the umbrella over all of the different crafts/trades (plumbers, electricians, fire technicians, etc.), field camp prep people…. all female.  Marsha and I make up the female population of the firehouse. 

With the ratio of almost 3:1 men to women, it’s no wonder that most of the women here are either married or in serious committed relationships.  Yes, their husbands or boyfriends are down here with them.  

And I’ve just been interrupted by work stuff.  I’ll be back to this later.

Recap of R & R and other lessons learned (In babbling style)

Hey everyone,

So yes.  I am wintering over in Antarctica.  I still can’t believe it.

I started inquiring about wintering over back in November.  I spent several days speaking with my supervisor and co-workers and other people that have spent the winter season down here.  I received almost 100 percent positive feedback about wintering and overall, I felt my heart telling me to stay in this place. 

So, let’s see what’s happened recently…

I spent a week in New Zealand at the beginning of the month on R & R.  When I arrived in Christchurch, it was the first time I’d seen a dark nighttime sky in 4 months.  I stood outside of the airport terminal and soaked in the humidty and stared at the stars.  As I was walking to the CDC (Clothing Distribution Center), I wanted to tear off my socks and shoes and walk barefoot in the grass.  I’m glad I didn’t because it may have absolutely been sensory overload.

If you’ve never thought about it, imagine what it is like to go 6 months without grass, trees, day and nighttime skies, flowers, people on cell phones, shopping, washing dishes, grocery shopping, cooking, major holidays without the fam, driving, serious crime, drugs, fights…  There were things that I missed, and things that I didn’t miss.  There are people that I miss and people that I would miss if I weren’t here. 

On that note, there were a few times where I had to wrestle my own emotions regarding staying here.  Do I miss my family?  Absolutely.  Do I miss my own house (living with three other women has been interesting)…  I miss having the freedom to do whatever I want in my house and not worrying about waking up my roommates when I come in at odd hours due to my work schedule.  Would I have missed the “family” I have here?  Totally.  There are some people that I have met here that I hope will always be part of my life.  Also, I try to flip to the positive side of living the dorm life.  I didn’t go off to college, so I didn’t get to experience the college dorm lifestyle.  So, despite the fact that I’ve had some trials with some of my roommates, I’m still greatful for the opportunity to learn from living with them.  ***On a good note though, I will have my OWN room for winter, and I am very excited about having all that SPACE just for me!***

So, back to my sensory overload while in New Zealand.  My first day out and about, I went shopping.  I’m a girl, it’s part of my DNA code.  I hadn’t worn a dress in God knows how long, and that was the main thing I was looking for.  I thought it was going to be great wearing jeans all of the time, and it’s really not that bad, but I wanted to feel girly.  My darling Jillian shipped me some make up several months ago, so that helped, but I wanted a dress.  So I went and bought 2.  I also bought a skirt, and then I discovered the New Zealand version of the Dollar Store.  I bought fake flower leis, Mardi Gras masks, more wall decals, paper lanterns to hang from the ceiling…  I went a bit nutso in there, but its ok.  It’s all equivalent to a dollar.  Right?

I then went and vegged out at the hotel.  I stretched out across my big bed (oh yeah, imagine 6 months of sleeping in a twin size bed with a not-so-comfortable mattress) and I just relaxed.  I then had dinner at the hotel where I happened to run into the new winter-over dispatchers.  There will be three of us this winter.  The Thurmanns are great.  They’re from the Orlando area and Wes actually has a few relatives in Brunswick.  Small world, I know.  So after dinner, we sat outside near the pool and enjoyed the 65 degree weather.  It was so nice to be outside near trees and enjoy an actual sunset… ah… it was blissful.

Sidenote – There isn’t always snow covering the ground here at McMurdo.  It all melts away and the air is heavy with dust and volcanic ash.  Oh, I believe I’ve mentioned it before, but we’re located not to far from an active volcano.  In Antarctica. 

Yep.  It’s still exciting to say that I’M IN ANTARCTICA!

Ok, sorry about that.  It’s 0431 local time and I’m into hour 21 of a 24 hour shift.  “But Tori, I thought you were working 12 hour shifts?!”

I was, but now I’m on a 24 hour on, 48 hour off schedule.  It’s not that bad.  I just get a little… ok I get very distracted very easily at about hour 20.

Okie dokie.  So, after I departmed my first hotel (The Pavillions) I moved to the Sudima, which is the hotel I stayed at on my first visit to New Zealand.  Conveniently located to the airport, I was able to meet my friend Cindy as she came off the Ice for her R & R.  She stayed with my for two nights and we enjoyed a day of shopping and going through the botanical gardens before she left to head to Auckland. 

The day she left, I headed to my final hotel (oh, yes, hotel availability since the earthquake of Feb 22, 2011 has been greatly diminished).  The Elms hotel is situated near several shopping areas, and I was headed out to them, but took a wrong turn and ended up going for a 3 mile jog.  It was a gorgeous day but jogging in hiking boots is never a good idea…  But I made it to the liquor store (I needed to get gifties for my people on the ice).  I then stopped by a kebab joint, grabbed a bite to eat, and headed back to the hotel.

The next morning, I packed everything up (I was stoked to get back to the ice) and headed down to the reception area, which is located in a small trailer in front of the hotel due to damage from the earthquake).  I sat outside with a bagel and a cup of coffee (I had missed good coffee), and waited for the shuttle.  I had also came into the information that our new firefighter was staying at the same hotel, so I wanted to meet him and introduce myself to him.  He came out of the hotel shortly after I did and, in typical firefighter tradition, he was wearing a shirt from another fire department (this is a very common trend and I’ve gotten used to it).  I introduced myself and we chatted about who he was, where he was from, why he decided to come here, so on and so forth.  I decided that he would fit in with the group nicely.  The shuttle arrived and took us to the airport, where we met up with one of our Lt’s that I had spent a few months with in the summer.  I introduced the two of them and we put on our ECW gear and met up with the others in our group headed back to the ice.  I ran into several people that I hung out with over the summer season that I didn’t realize were on R&R at the same time I was.

Our highest population over the summer was over 1100, it’s ok that I couldn’t keep up with what everyone was doing. 

Our population over the summer is expected to be around 200 or less…  I’m super excited about this.

So we loaded up onto the C-17 with our bagged lunches and headed back home to McMurdo.  And THAT is when I discovered why people keep returning.  I had only been gone 5 days and the hugs and “Welcome back!”s I recieved were incredible.  I really felt like I was coming back home.   The entire crew out at station 2 met us and basically mobbed me.  I was so happy to see all of my A shift boys again.  They’re like a bunch of little brothers.

When I got back into town, I got a huge hug from Genevieve when I walked into dispatch and when I saw Lori at dinner, we went running to eachother for hugs.  Have I mentioned that I have had the best boss?  Oh and she’s left me for the winter season… This saddens me.

So at dinner I caught up with people and was bombarded with questions like “What was it like?  What did you do?  What did you see?”  My answers were “Green grass, trees, stars and dogs.  I almost got hit by a car.  Thousands of people I didn’t know, and it scared me.”

After dinner I went in search of my best friend Rick.  I had brought back a bottle of Scotch for him as well as a “nerf” style dart gun.  Yes, I bought one for myself too.  I got the best hug from him.  That’s when I knew that I was doing the right thing and felt like I was home.

McMurdo and it’s people have been good for me.  They’ve taught me so much about life and have helped me become more comfortable with who I am. 

I’m looking forward to the winter season.

Love to all – Tori